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| my so called life = over, MTV = evil, erin = resentful/disappointed/depressed :( |
| 07.23.04 (5:57 pm) [edit] |
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHH
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhh hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
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oh my god they CANNOT DO THAT. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh x_x just watched the My So Called Life season finale< sjdfklasdlrjaselkrj!!!!!!!! >
so
not
fair
they can
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not do that
:freaks out:
THEY CANT LEAVE LIKE THAT
wtfffffffffffffffffff i HATE CLIFE HANGERS ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh h
and no i will not get over it. IM WIGGING OUT HERE AHhhhhsdkfjaskejraksjera9 034u df gah
_< how could they cancel that show? HOW COULD THEY? [b]what the bloody hell were they thinking?!?!?!?!?![/b]>
sdjkf ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh -_- :very mad at mtv: im gonna sue. IM GONNA SUE O grrrrrrr
ahhhhhhh okay im gonna go freak out somewhere else now yea __
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| what the hell is a 'waffer' anyway? |
| 07.23.04 (1:29 pm) [edit] |
woo. more middle school bullshit. weee.
i guess some people just dont realize how much i enjoy telling people off .
anywho...
Mark : bleedmascara27: newhos i miss u so much and id give nething to have u say i love u to me and mean it again
Mark : i never meant it
Erin : lol
Mark : _Mark : yell at her please
Erin : haha
Erin : woo i get to be the bitchy girl friend yehaw
...so i did...
thEunLOVEDrockER: hey.. you need to back off, k? You seriously need to leave mark alone. You screwed up your chance for yourself, so stop acting like an obsessed stalker and just back off. Stop leaving melodramatic comments on his journal, we all know its you. Even james knows it's you and james doesnt even know you. So just get a life and cut it out.
bleedmascara27: i only did it once and half the fucking time its not me
thEunLOVEDrockER: yeah right.
bleedmascara27: and y the fuck did u tell him that i hated him
thEunLOVEDrockER: Yuo said you hated him, not me. I have the conversations. Yuo told me to break up with him because he was cheating on me, and i asked you why i should believe you and you said you hated him.
bleedmascara27: i never fucking said that
thEunLOVEDrockER: bullshit
thEunLOVEDrockER: youre a lair, little girl. A dirty liar. He shouldnt believe a word you say and neither should anyone else. get your shit straight, stop lyign, and ..just back off.
bleedmascara27: im not lying im not that kind of person and fuck u u should burn in hell
yeah and then she blocked me. what a lesbian. she is no fun. no fun at all.
and btw, if I am going to burn in hell, then she sure as hell is as well, so i'll meet ya there bitch, and we'll duke it out then )
so yeah.. my journal is basically turning into a bitch hate-mail thing. har. ohhh welll it is OH so much fun <3>
i would seriously like to meet those two though...thinking they're all hard. HA. i bet there.....5'2, i know theyre 14..and ignorant as fuck. I could so take them. both. at the same time. with my hands behind my back. :snaps:
aheahha.
no seriously. unless they both weigh about 200+ each, i'd be no freaking contest. .
ahaha i love this lyric
"i said i'd not back..well im coming back :music stops..gets real quiet: "...and you better be alone"
hehehehhe <3>har. mark said this guy has a horrible voice, but i <3 it.>
soooo..im leaving tomorrow. at like 8. x_x im gonna die *dies*
i'll be back..sunday or monday. gah. until then *tips hat* hopefully i shall return with my sanity intact.....if not.... .
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| Track 8 Controversy |
| 07.22.04 (4:11 pm) [edit] |
Exhibit A is of the song that Mark sent me from the CD.....so wtf? Which is it?! Receptive or Respective? Is respective even a word...ha.
Consequently, I cannot make the label for my CD until I know which is the correct title for track 8. hm
I made a new layout yesterday. Well......i didnt make it yesterday, but I put the finishing touches on it yesterday..heh. Its another Used skin..mark asked me to make one for him, so i gave him the one i already started.. he has it on his mindsay :) but it looks better in blogger format as Mindsay blocks out much of the picture O
looooookie
mhm :nods: it's purdy. kind of a Used version of this skin voot voot.
hm...we went to Eckerd today. I got some makeup and some black hairdye.....not sure if I'm gonna dye it or not, but it was cheap so I couldnt resist.
I got/am getting 10 bucks for helping trim the bushes outside our house the otherday. kickass. I was going to buy the old tbs cd while we were out today, but we didnt stop at bestbuy so poo.
hmmm..anniversary and mr. bolling is nowhere to be found. .I know he's with Morgan though. ^-^
I dreamt about him visiting me last night...that was weird. so very weird. but sooooo badass. <33 aheaha. yes it was a very long dream and it makes me happy thinking about it :)>
hm..i also started redoing the layout for one of my other sites. it's very nice so far. and im nearly done so voot
heh I almost printed out the cd label and then i realized... track 8 on the playlist i got off the site didnt match the song I had...O.o whatthebloodyhell? so now I have to wait till someone gets on that has the cd so i can ask them which it is. hah.
its amazing.. the only time i actually WANT to stay up til 1, is the only time i fall asleep early. I fell asleep at 12:45, realized...somehow...that i was supposed to be awake, and woke myself up at 1:20..exactly. i was like :damn: hah but then i had a good dream, so i guess it makes up for it ^-^
:dances: ever have adream you didnt want to wake up from?..that was definitely one of them.
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| gah where has the time gone? |
| 07.22.04 (7:43 am) [edit] |
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happy 11 month anniversary tooooooo meeeee :sings:
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| did you think that i would cryyyyy..on the phone.. |
| 07.20.04 (6:20 pm) [edit] |
cori came over today <3333>we basically just hung out cause my mother would not drive us to the mall o but oh well. that was cool. and then later we went shopping at ross.....i didnt get anything. wait, yes i did. A callous, right between my toes. yay. -_- heh but it was all pretty fun. har.
so yeah. my eventful day woo.
and then i watched some gay movie with madonna in it.....eh? i kinda missed the end.. well, iwatched it but i wasnt paying attention so i dont even know how it ended. gah. how gay.
anyway.....i really dunno why i'm updating. nothing really to say...
we're leaving in a couple days. im listening to aar. that's about it. beh
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| where have all the cowboys gone... |
| 07.19.04 (4:24 pm) [edit] |
nifeattack: hi
thEunLOVEDrockER: you spelled 'screw up' wrong. just to let you know.
thEunLOVEDrockER: and its 'you're' not 'your'
thEunLOVEDrockER: incorrect grammar makes you look like an illiterate fuck :-)
nifeattack: when did i do this
thEunLOVEDrockER: your profile, smart one.
nifeattack: ok
nifeattack: sry
nifeattack: but i guess i dont spell right i try
nifeattack: but i guess not hard enough
thEunLOVEDrockER: ..are you trying to pull a guilt trip on me, little girl?
nifeattack: no
thEunLOVEDrockER: sure sounds like it.
thEunLOVEDrockER: What do you want from me?
nifeattack: to be a friend not a person that i dont get along with
thEunLOVEDrockER: What reason could I possibly have to want to be friends with you?
nifeattack: wut reasons would u not besides my gramor
nifeattack: and may i ask did i spell that right
thEunLOVEDrockER: no. you did not. it's horribly wrong.
nifeattack: im sry
nifeattack: i need to work on it
thEunLOVEDrockER: agreed.
nifeattack: that the on thin i would make a big 0 on
thEunLOVEDrockER: ..i didnt understand a word you just asid.
thEunLOVEDrockER: said*
nifeattack: well i was saying im not very good at spelling if we had a test on it in school i would more thin likely faile
nifeattack: somethin like that
thEunLOVEDrockER: heh, no doubt about that.
nifeattack: how old r u anyways i forgot
thEunLOVEDrockER: Older than you.
nifeattack: i know that like a year
nifeattack: maybe a year in a half
thEunLOVEDrockER: how old are you?
nifeattack: 14
nifeattack: i cant wait tell i get to drive
nifeattack: yay
nifeattack: so close so sone
thEunLOVEDrockER: a two years then.
thEunLOVEDrockER: ah*
nifeattack: 3 months and i get my perment
thEunLOVEDrockER: And i am glad I live this far away from you. I'd hate in the area when you start driving.
nifeattack: hold on i think 2
thEunLOVEDrockER: Not so good at math, either?
thEunLOVEDrockER: Pity.
nifeattack: ummmmmmmmm i hafe to get perfect score
nifeattack: even thou i have a classic sports care
thEunLOVEDrockER: ...
thEunLOVEDrockER: what does that have to do with anything?
nifeattack: 1961 mg its a beaouty
thEunLOVEDrockER: Good fo ryou
thEunLOVEDrockER: for*
thEunLOVEDrockER: Do I care?
thEunLOVEDrockER: Does it matter?
thEunLOVEDrockER: Unless youre a rapper, no.
nifeattack: its awsome and light and strong and is a race car thats wut
thEunLOVEDrockER: ...
nifeattack: and better thin some shity new car
thEunLOVEDrockER: are you gonna raace with your mommy in the passanger's seat?
thEunLOVEDrockER: Cause that'd be so pimp.
nifeattack: ummm no amatter a fact thats y i can get a hardship bc mommy cant drive and no i aint ill do that with me mysel i and hmmmmmmm i think whos ever daring enough to get in with me
thEunLOVEDrockER: are you speaking english?
thEunLOVEDrockER: Learn to puncuate your freaking sentences before you talk to me.
thEunLOVEDrockER: I have no idea what what you just said even means.
nifeattack: ok wutever
nifeattack: i love ernie
nifeattack: hehe
thEunLOVEDrockER: .wtf do i care?
nifeattack: i know im being stupid o and ur being wut did i here u say a stupid slut thats so stupid that she dates someone that probly cheated on her in the last week but if u think its ok i told my bf if u get all horny go fuck a random chick bc he lives like 300 miles away
thEunLOVEDrockER: i dont care what yuo did with your boyfriend
thEunLOVEDrockER: that's youre life.
thEunLOVEDrockER: so stay out of mine.
nifeattack: well he cheets on u all the time
thEunLOVEDrockER: betty
thEunLOVEDrockER: id ont fucking care
thEunLOVEDrockER: alright?
thEunLOVEDrockER: so go shove a yardstick in your pussy and leave me alone.
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aaaaaaaha.hahhah.hahahheha.ahehaharhaehha.
aha.
she's like so freaking retarded. :D:D:D muchos fun to fuck with eheheheeh. ..and i will give twenty dollars to ANYONE who can correctly translate what she said in to normal english. eh eh, any takers?
hmmmmmMMmmm supposed to go over to cori's tomorrow <3>
ackkk :hides: parentol fight EVERYBODY DOWN! eeeep.
no idea what they're fighting about. apparently something is wrong with my mom and she wont talk about it. she just sits there and cries. or some shit. i think it's pre-menopause or something. blah. go get a pill and shutup. -.-
bah. so i've started watchign I <3 the 90's.......but not in order. and not all at once. ill watch 10 minutes and then walk away... so i have like no idea which years 've watched and which i havent. ^__^ so great. >
um.the title is in reference to two certain people's xangas...:coughcoughCOUGH: ehehee :runs:
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| aiMutation rocks my socks |
| 07.18.04 (4:01 pm) [edit] |
this kid comes into the chat and starts god-modding about how such and such bands suck and blahblah and wouldnt give it up so after a while i go..
theunlovedrocker: you know who you would like to talk to?
h0t for leo: mark
Flames in Shadow: mark
theunlovedrocker: yeah
that was so awesome.
PunkKilledJosh: i know where james got his s/n
theunlovedrocker: .....
h0t for leo: we all know posh
theunlovedrocker: from greend ay
PunkKilledJosh: oh
h0t for leo: :pats on back:
theunlovedrocker: DOI
h0t for leo: good job
h0t for leo: :-D
theunlovedrocker: awww :pets:
PunkKilledJosh: i it jus hit me
ahahahahaa. slowwwwwwww.
so yeah i downloaded ayttm and it sucked, so i got rid of 5.5 since it sucked as well, and got 5.2 and aiMutation. which i love. and a kickass skin which is the sex. and i acn talk while away bitches wooooooo
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| are you talking to ME? |
| 07.18.04 (10:42 am) [edit] |
I woke up today at about 9 to my dad bitching at the computer. heh. get in line dad, we all know how shitty it is. ehh..and then sometime after 10 i fell asleep and woke up at noon.
when I got online, i fould that all my aim+ history logs were in the recycle bin. PSHHh. i was like "awh heil naw" and moved them into my folder, where they would not be found :) hehe. i should really go through them, though. it's a huuuuuuge file with 293482934734 logs.. yeah. that's def. on the to-do list. :D
currently, i'm downloading ayttm. <3 supposedly a >really great third-party client for AIM that will remove the ads <3, and has tabbed windows..[which makes me cream myself] i love tabbed windows. and since i upgraded to AIM 5.5 my deadaim wouldnt work, and my aim+ wouldnt work either...though it was still logging convos, and i couldnt turn it off xD but yeh..so now i have an all-in-one thing that will be nice. and stuff. since I [at the moment] >dispise 5.5 ^-^
and after that is done downloading, i'm going to get my adware removed. gah. it's becoming rediculous. O found a really nifty site that offers a free adware/spyware remover, instead of just a free "scan" bah. so yeh. will do that next. this ayttm is taking For-ev-errrr to download though. pfft.
eck. it keeps raining. i like sleeping while it's raning, but i dont like to be awake when it is. =/ makes me feel apathetic and lethargic..and kinda sad :(
hmm.. i wish this thing would get done. ::anxious::
blOOp 90% :D
ohhh and my mother called Sprint yesterday to inquire about us possibly getting dsl...well, it's not available in our area as of late, but it will be soon! they said, before the year is up, everyone will be avaliable for dsl service. and as soooon as we can get it we will. because aol = $23, the extra phone like = $20 slow connection= me going crazy. meanwhile, dsl = $50 [from Sprint..but I think earthlink has a better price] and I get to keep my sanity, and we can get rid of the phone that we...never..use.. eheheh. so yeah <3 and FINALLY Erin willl not have the slowest connection of anyone's life. SO NO MORE TEASING ME >O grrwar
ehh my dad is making meatloaf for lunch. yeah, for lunch. wtf? why is he making food now? he should make dinner, not lunch. I can eat ramen for lunch. and I dont even like meatloaf so wtf.gahhh. Oh well. I hope he's making mashed potatoes + gravy <333. aaaaaha im so Irish. anywho...yeah. he better bring the taters, or else.>
hm. i watched three episodes of southpark last night. xD they were all reruns but i havent watched southpark in sooo long. aehahehae. i wanted to watch the movie, but it was on at 1 and everyone was asleep...save me, of course. bah -.-
So as far as summer reading goes, I read Anthem and Brave New Word already
ooo ayttm is done!
anyway..as i was saying.. i read those already but my mom says i have to read two more. BLAHHh. and she got me this ernest hemmingway book.....that i am SO not going to read ^-^ she says its on the reading list, but it's ficking huge, and boring. so no. n.n not gonna happen.
it's a story about war, love, and death. ......wow. i could watch Saving Private Ryan or We Were Soldiers for that. O pshhhh
she's crazy :D
ahkay :scampers off to go install ayttm: weeeeeeee
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| I <3 the 90s |
| 07.17.04 (8:12 am) [edit] |
hmm.
so.. yeah. i dont feel like updating but i guess i will anyway.
i downloaded a really cool font for PS yesterday, then woke up today to find that we have abuo twenty brand new fonts that we did not have yesterday. O.o wassap widat? heh, No idea. they just...appeared there. :shrug: some of them are cool..others are really gay or else really close to what I already have. bahh.
aaron IMed me yesterday out of nowhere, and asked if I had any new poems for him to read because he was in a really shitty mood. ehh. I didnt, as I havent actually written anything since, like..christmas. blah. So then, wouldnt one find it curious to hear that I wrote a new one last night?... it's.....different..that what I'm used to writing. more "mature" or something. I'm not sure if I like it, it's not my typical style, and that half-way worries me. pfft. it's just.. not "real" or ..something
yeah. whatever i meant by that..
dehh im gonna go play around in photoshop. -.-
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| n3w bl0g |
| 07.15.04 (12:03 pm) [edit] |
um.....new blog. again. yeahhhhhhhh
i like this one better than emoblog though. so yeah. sticking with this for a while, i guess. :shrug: woot
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| canadians dont lock doors |
| 07.15.04 (11:07 am) [edit] |
i love my bootcut jeans. :huggles them: they're long and soft mmm.
the only thing that would make me love them more was if they had some holes...heh. :plays dirty: or if i had a spiffy-wicked belt buckle to go wth. but I do not. so :sad:.
i want a big phat shiney metal belt buckle. because those are hot.
i <3 the one Buck had, but I don't think I could quite pull it off as well as he. hRm. bummer.>
bleh. the betlbuckles on hottopic are cheesy. and for 20 dollars, i could buy two new belts, so heil naw, nigga. i dont play dat way, holms.
bah. why am i talking about beltbuckles? I must be retarded. gehh.
um..mark didn't talk to me yesterday. he had his a/m on for most of the day. blehh.
yeh, so that is still unsettled. great.
:yawn: i just woeke up maybe, half an hour ago. and i'm still tired. lovely. just lovely.
ahaaaa how =http://www.hottopic.com/store... target=_blankpimp is that?!
lmao. awh heil yesss.
so i'm growing my hair out. bleh. i shouldn't have gotten it cut. bleh. oh freaking well. it should only take me a couple months to grow it out but still..what a pain. what.a.pain.
Elixer of Evil: I'm gonna go be metrosexual today and go get a manicure
Sorry Greg, that went from metrosexual straight to flaming fag n.n
that reminds me... i should paint my nails 'fore they break all off :( i keep stabbing myself with them ) ahehe.
ahahaa. and yesterday, when i was shaving. in the shower. naked. ..uh..anyway, when i was shaving, i had my hand on my leg [for balance, i guess i dunno] and i moved the razor back real fast and caught my left thumbnail. xD like, right down the middle. t'was amusing. ..im just glad i HAVE nails..otherwise i would have nicked my thumb.. :wince: owwie.
"dubious" i hate that word. hate it. hate hate hate. it just sounds so............gayyyyy. bah
so um.. i actually saw '93 yesterday. i missed 94-95. which sucked, because i really did want to watch 94...but it'll be on today so woo.
bleh. school in 3 weeks or something. :so not thrilled:
uh... i just tried to go to DieTrying's official site, and it "cannot be found" so then I went to IslandRecords..and they don't list DT as one of their bands.....so wtf?! did DT just drop off the face of the earth?!!! :( poopie.
ehh. it sounds like rain, so i'm gonna be off to go find out what happened to the band :sigh:
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| emo boys ar e a handfull |
| 07.15.04 (10:38 am) [edit] |
it's a pathetic feeling. to have to tip-toe around him. i've never been like that around anyone before. watching what i say so that in the event that i offend him, he wont break up with me. yeah, i guess that's what im afraid of. him leaving. so i dont stand up to him. It'd be different if he were here. But it's so damn easy for him to leave this way. And I dont want to risk it. So I keep it to myself. I backdown and let him have his way. Though not entirely.
Mark: him or me
i knew he'd do that. I knew it. I could see it coming. And if he thinks he's going to be one of those controling boyfriends, he is so very wrong. Now...how to tell him that and not have him go berzerk and leave? Heh.. that would be the question..
He is so amazingly overreactant.
In the past two days, he's gotten mad over a comment, and then mis-read how james responded. If anything I would have thought it'd give him this like, power trip. that "i have her and you dont" kinda thing. But, once again, I can never correctly guess how he'll react to anything. bah. I should just stop trying. However, I did fortell him telling me that I could not talk to James anymore. n.n saw that one coming a mile away.
Where does he get off even demanding that of me? who does he think he is? hah. not gonna happen, mister. I am not wound as tightly around your finger as you think.
And I refuse to make a choice. Fuck that. You do not OWN me. And I.will.not.choose.
and besides, naturally i'd have to choose mark. but we never talk. it's rather boring. that's why i'm lucky to have james around. he "spices things up" as emmeril would say.
It's amazing he doesnt hate me too. I'm not going to post the conversations. They're too rediculous anyway....no, i change my mind. i think i will post todays.
Mark: hey i think you should tell james to chill out
Mark: ok just some friendly advice
Me: what's he doing/
Me: ?*
Mark: b/c hes a little bitch
Me: lol
Me: but what is he doing?
Mark: and i swear if i see another comment from him like that one on july 10th
Mark: i dunno
Mark: but just i hope we dont see one
Me: hmm
Me: well i cant control his commenting..
Mark: nope
Mark: just hope we dont ok?
Me: okay...
Mark: erin im fucking serious
Me: okay mark.
Me: :hugs: it's okay mark. it's really not that big of a deal
Mark: just to let you know
Mark: he has the potential to ruin us
Me: what?.
Me: because he likes me?... that makes a load of sense.
Mark: no erin b/c hes getting me fucking involved in you twos shit
Mark: thats what makes fucking sence
Me: youre getting in to our "shit".. we dont have shit, mark. and im not bringing you into it
Mark: theres one thing i swore i would never do but im thinking about doing
Mark: ok hes*
Me: that worries me.
Me: i think im gonna go.
Mark: wow erin
Mark: its not what you think
Mark: but ok
Me: then what is it?
Mark: ok its really gay
Mark: but i might end up saying him or me
Mark: :-
Me: :-
Mark: and its bros before hoes but......thats all im gonna say
Me: heh
Me: that reminds me of leslie :-
Mark: welp
Mark: erin...
Me: mark
Mark: thats what im leaving you with
Mark: him or me
Mark: and if you have to leave me
Me: mark
Me: i love you
Mark: i love you to:-
Mark: its just ive never been so sensitive with someone
Me: i wont ever leave you.
Mark: but even thought its not the same
Mark: I HATE SEEING YOU TELL SOMEONE ELSE YOU LOVE THEM
Mark: ecspecially someone i hate
Mark: and that someone hates me
Me: ehh. i love him a sa friend gah. he's a really good friends. its like we're related.
Me: and why do you hate him so much anyway?
Mark: b/c i was fuckin with him andi fucking said i love you james
Mark: and he says i hate oyu mark
Mark: thats fucked up
Mark: i was being nice to him
Mark: and hes a fucking ass
Me: he was kidding.
Mark: no he fucking wasnt erin
Me: G00D R1D4NCE: i hate you mark :-*
Me: that face = kidding.
Mark: you dont know how easily my feelings get hurt
Me: yes i do.
Mark: im fucking crying now erin
Me: oh markkk
Mark: you dont understand what ive been through that made me like this
Me: no. i dont.
Mark: but im gonna go
Mark: i need to sit down and talk to someone
Me: ok
Mark: so im gonna go talk to kelly
Mark: but i guess ill talk to you later
Me: ohkay
Mark: im gonna write somemore
Mark: but i hope you make the write decision
Mark: but im.......i dunno
Mark: i love you
Mark: bye
ehhh i feel sorry for kelly. =/ but uh.. you know, if we ever sat down and talked about shit, MAYBE I would know why you are like that. -_-
and im not going to post the day before's because.. bleh too controversial. i dont want to deal with it right now.
i just hope he doesnt seriously expect me to choose. that's bullshit. plain bs.
i mean, i'd hate to lie to him, but goddamn, i'm not going to sacrifice a really strong friendship just because he has some beef with that person. bah. he must be crazy.
damn emo boy.
why do i feel like a whore? why do i feel like such a fucking whore?
and why is it the only time me and mark talk, like...really talk, is when we're fighting?
just take a look at my aim history. the long entries are us fighting. no coincidence there, i assure you. -_-
and he is so closed. he isnt open about anything at all. hes all locked up and i cant get him to tell me anything. he's right. i DO NOT KNOW why he's like that. but its because he hasnt told me.
sometimes i feel like i dont know him.
and like, he doesnt even tell me about mediocre little things. like when his band has a show, or .....i dunno, just stuff. it's like he doesnt want me to know or something.
i like his sporadic use of the F word, though. he reminds me of me when i get irrationally pissed. heh.
i wouldnt as of him to choose between me and morgan. that's crazy. so i really do not get where he gets off thinking he could do it to me.
i dont play that way, hun. sorry to tell you. ^-^
bleh. :blares tbs: and alllllllll iiiiiiiiiiii need to know is if there's soemthign else i'm missing..
okay, so other than mr. emotional freaking out again, i got laughed at by James for being the lotr loser i am. In that I can speak and write elvish...quenya, to be exact...blehh. i also found my One Ring today. :shows it off: it's old, i need a new one.
i just had a sudden urge to listen to fenix tx. but that would involve me getting up to find my cd...and ..no. too much work.
so..new blog. uh..i had to learn ETS, which didnt go so well. I basically just copied and pasted part of one of the default templates, and then manipulated so it would fit my layout...yeah.
:yawn: good luck sleeping tonight, erin. heh. this ought to be amusing.
i give up. i do. i give. i would really like to be happy now, thanks. if it's not too much to ask, God, you could really send something to make me happy right about now, yea.
i'm not worth either of them. i'm just lucky to know them. aggg.
now he knows how i felt when i heard he had cheated on me. -_- somehow i thought vengeance would feel a little better.. perhaps the accident factor has something to do it.
:sigh: i just feel so responsible. and i feel like a fucking whore, besides. but it feels like my fault. it feels like its all my fault. and if i'd met him anywhere else, he wouldn't have given me the time of day.. and yet here he is getting all worked up over me. it's not worth it. im not worth all this fuss.
somethings got to change. and it's not gonna be with me.
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